I recoil
My skin
crawls
My mind
is not there
My soul
has left
My body
tense
You touch me
I gag
My lungs
pull air
My ears
can't hear
My eyes
wide shut
My skin
shreds
You touch me
I disappear
© 2007
JJIt really doesn't matter
Because I can't have you
I often wonder how life would be
If we were together - you and me
Imagine
Just think
My head on your chest
Listening as I have in the past
To the smartest man in the cast
Of characters we have become
The circus the game
They are one in the same
And laugh
And think
And get inside my head
You'd make me feel good about myself
Confidence Peace Security
Are they things you bring to me
Then you would place your hands on my face
Plant a kiss on my lips and say
"I love you JJ" before you go away
But that's O.K. because you were never there
To the man in the white, grey, black and blue
Because I never can really have you.
© 2007 JJ
I do underestimate you
I am sorry
Sometimes
I do over react
I am sorry
Sometimes
I do not understand
I'm sorry
Sometimes
I do embarrass you
I am sorry
Sometimes
I do not have the explanation
I am sorry
But
Always
I love you.
© 2007 JJ

